01.12.25

I have never wanted anything more in my life than to be with you. The problem is, I have gotten everything thing I have ever wanted or asked for in my life. Maybe not immediately, but eventually. If I were serendipity, the universe or god, I would certainly test me hard with you. We aren’t talking about me wanting an object or thing or to hit a goal or milestone, we are talking about the most amazing and special person in the world. Deep down, I would want me to understand just how important this person is and how I need to take care of them and cherish them for how special they are. I would make it feel impossible for things to work out or be with them. I would make it harder than anything I have ever done. If I were the universe, I would want me to give up, because I am not good enough for this person and their life needs to be left alone. I am a total wreck after getting to be with you for three days. It was perfect even with the imperfections because I learned we can handle conflict just fine. We have proven clear communication is so important and solves issues before they start and we are good at it when we need it most. If the universe throws impossibilities at me, fine, I will keep going. I will prove everyday that I deserve you more than anyone. I love you so much Amy Leann! You are so special and amazing to me and it hit me so hard in the airport as we were saying goodbye. I don’t ever want to say goodbye to you. I want you forever and I will prove it every day. Love, Ben